SPM is getting near...

Spm is getting near n near...so does my fear...haiz...

i didnt really prepare for test...

haiz...test is another 2 weeks...wat am i suppose to do...

wat i can say is just to try my best...really got to try my best...

second...i miss my bro...very very miss my bro...

he is so happy over there...bu tme suffering here...

but as long as he is happy than wat also enough le...

but i really miss him lo...

third...my fren eve...

haha...at last...she found someone she really care for...

that guy...haha...he is kinda funny...kinda dark as well..

but he really can make her laugh...

im so glad that she found one...

fourth...its time for me to study..

haha...so long didnt post blog le....

anyway...got to go...

sorry for the long time didnt post...

bro left...

today...can be counted as my bro left me for one week to UK...kinda miss him a lot...is very very much...

cant be finish counted i guess...

wondering how is he doing there....

today is his birthday...

first year didnt celebrate with him...

tears starting to fall...

i guess my mum too....

after he is gone....only realise he mean so much to me...

without my bro...everything change...

like...ther eis no one argue with me...

even do house work also im alone...

without him...got no energy to do so many things..

even dun even have the mood to online...

only sleep and sleep and sleep...

so that wont think so much...

i at here just hope to wish him

HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

hope everyone will wish him too...

miss u bro...

KNOCK OUT!!!

I totally knock out le...

its TOTALLY....

for crise...haihz...i dunno how to say bout my day...

its so unbelieveble..

first time see my frens cry...and even i argue with fren...

ish....wat the hell is going on man...

y is like everyone change to sumone we dunno...

hello!!! the is no drama contest or even MASK contest here....

I really wanna know wat is going between everyone..

is there any way we can solve all this SHIT problem??
for crise...argue and hate is not the way...

i wan everything to settle and everyone deal with it la..

for wat now all like that?

not tired meh?? u guys not tired but i am...

summore now totally sick..knock out already...

haihz...wat are frens for??

is fren surpose to be trust or not surpose to be trust??

im damn sick of FRENS this word...damn...

how can things never ever settle??

i really dunno wat i can do anymore...

im tired...

wanna have a break... ciaoz

I really dunno wat to do le...

I really feel very 'fan' already...

i really dunno wat i can do anymore...

its like everything started to turn upside down again...

everything not under my control...

sumthing havent even settle than another thing come again...

i really do feel tired...

can sumone help me??

can i survive???

i really feel tired...

wat is love actually??

can i know that??

y does everyone love me so much...

i feeel guilty...

i do feel guilty with wat i have done before..

i hope god can forgive me...

but then its like im blur...

i am really blur...

dunno how to love a person or even how to care for a person..

i hate been change...

how come!???

y!!???

but then its was lucky thatg the frenster so call F**ker hate been kick off..

firstly wanna thanks bai for help me so much...

always there for me...

second my frens of cos...help me also...

cheer me up too..

lastly is my cousin Jason...hehe...

going to see him soon...

anwyay thats all for today i guess..

kind the dunno wat to write..

everything blur...

cant even think...

ciaoz...

I'm BACK!!!

heloo...im back at last...

haha its like i very long didnt blog le...

damn busy lately..

anyway lets go to the point...

let us talk bout genting trip...wohoo...YEAH!!!

was in genting on 14 and 15 on JULY...its was the best day ever....

we were there for the MLTR concert...its was COOL...love their song so much...

other than that...we also went to karaoke..until bout 5am in the morning only go back to room..

and let me say...i stay in SUITE...which need room card to excess the lift...wakaka...

i think u guys were thinking how fun am i...

and i was so tired at the time..plan to sleep..but then SHI RUI the crazy parrot keep making noise..

dun let me sleep...but tired until cant tahan fall a sleep like pig...but the get whack up at 8 sumthing...haihz...

but then it was fun...really does...

let me upload sum pics...keke

Dress up for concert...yippy...me and darlie...haha

Two pretty gals going for PARTY!!

those are little pics of the trip...

so lets talk bout today...

im damn piss now...

there is a F**cking guy who create a new acc using my name and my pics...

and even send me a message ask me to close down my profile or else...

he even say i keep adding ppl and stuff and call me a BITCH!!!!!

for crise...is knowing frens also a fault?? or even the ppl add me for being frens also my fault???

how can this happen??

y cant bad thing non stop happen to me now!!?? wat did i did wrong actually??

i realy dunno...i really dunno...

i already no mood for few days...now got more prob for me to face...

i really feel tired...damn damn damn tired...

and the guy who wrote the message...BE WARE!!!

u r just getting to my NERVE!!! dun ever make me ANGRY!!! u will never wan to!!!!

so F**K OFF...

anyway lets upload sum of my recently pics...

Two leng lui's taking in the middle of cold and nite...AWWW....

Me lying on the bed..tired...

post all in a day...

oh my gosh...its like i need to post lots today...hmm lets see which day should i post first..
oh ya...last week of skul holiday...

8th June 2007

lets see...wat i did today...

oh ya went to MV with my gang...crazy gang...but then its fun cos i at list got to spend one day time with my lou gong chai *shi rui*...wakaka...

we went for the ocean thirteen movie...oh my god...its damn freaking nice show...

all are smart n good looking...but then sumthing distruct me...which is can hear the raining sound when u r inside the cinema room...effect my mood...ish...
at that day...we went for pool...fuu yoh...all very geng in playing man...got take few pics too...

wah look at me...got the post eh...professional.. *perasan*

but then frankly we really had sum fun that day..thought my skul holiday will be damn bored..but it didnt..at last let me enjoy a day with frens...other than that...hmm...me n shi rui...went for fitting room to took sum pics of formal dress....who ever saw pls dun have nose bleed oh...cos its SEXY..haha :P

well..this is the ying yang dudes...haha nice??

well this is the twin sister...haha :P

so i guess thats all for that day post...lets go to do the day...wakaka...

8th June 2007

hmm...wat exactly happen today??? which is...my niece n nephew were in my house...
oh my god...u will never imagine how cute they are but then how naughty n noisy they are...
on the friday night...i wanted to sleep...but then cant man...its like both of them keep crying...i dunno y...
stop n cry n stop n cry again...oh my gosh...than mum wake us up for breakfast...my eyes totally like a panda...my niece who sleep with me keep kicking the blanket n pulling the blanket...i cant even sleep...
but then the are adorable to me...very very cute...u saw them u will just think of carrying them...
let me show u their pics...haha :P

TADA..here it is...boy name tang tang...girl name tian tian...

well..next its before going for swimming...oh my god...cant believe im putting this...

well this...i guess i dun need to say bah...haha :P

well..those are the pics that i took when they are around...but then too bad they just stay for one night...cry for dun wan to go back to JB...gonna miss them...haha :P well thats all i guess...next day...

10 June 2007

so today...i attend a dinner...a baby full moon...but ish...i didnt get to see the babe...haihz...so cham..
but then i get to see ots of leng chai n rich guys...oh my god..but i dint get any... *choi*
hmm...before going to that uncle *durian* house *thats what i name him* haha...i keep changing my clothes until a suitable one...haihz...girls really mafan wan my bro said...WTH...
girls dress up to look pretty so wont let guys down mah...he ah..memang know how to pijak me down only...let u guys see wat i took...

this was the first one i wear...hmm...look fat right??

while this was my last choice...its a pocket dot greeny dress...and i love it very much too...but then my supid cousin say i looks like aunty...at the party i saw a guy...he was damn handsome...fair n cute...we 2 keep looking at each other but then v didnt get to know each other...or mayb he had a gf or sumthing...kind the regret didnt get to know him...he was so adorable...and damn tall....haha :P weel i guesss thats all for my post...tired...

TIREDNESS will never gone...

Tired will always in me...whats wrong now??
Y like everything in me is getting weak???
cant think of anything now..is like im blank...
every single time only think of sleep...nothing more...

WTH...even didnt think of study...

All this is because of U..all is because of U...
what u wan from me??? is it funny to see me like this now??
How can U hurt me like this??
no matter how thats my privacy u know???

how can u do such thing???

Now i feel that im a total jerk...a jerk ass...

I really really very tired already...y tis will never end ne??

I wish everything stop right here...
just for one minute also enough...
I WANNA HAVE A BREAK MAN...

now talk bout happy stuff...

hmm...that day 2nd june is my daddy birthday...
hmm..we went got hi-tea...
every year also the same thing...and the same time v also shop at Time Square...
i bought a pinky bag which cost me 200 bugs...
but then to me its worth..cos its branded n its so nice...
at the same day...we meet up one of my dad's fren from peneng..
oh my god...its like been years i didnt c him...his daughter also grow up le..
while he became darker...dunno y...and comparing skin colour with my daddy...
which is totally DIFFERENT...

i just got my new hair cut...which is cute *perasannya*

but then to rezwa he doesnt like my short hair...dunno y...

but i kind the hate my long hair but also miss it *WTH im talking*
but mostly i think long hair makes everyone looks older bah...
short hair make me feel fresh..hehe
oh ya...been to TS with daryl..casey...rezwa...
had a really good time there...which is fun...
3 of them play bowling..while rezwa n casey purposely make a fall to make sum smile around...
but then too bad i miss it...cos i went shopping ALONE *haihz*

but then we took sum pics...here we promote STARBUCKS
wakaka..

look how daryl promote his drink..haha

tis is how casey promote...haha

while its rexwa turn lo..wakaka

mine seems a bit weird...thanks to rezwa 'hand'

"LOVE"

Love really drives everyone crazy...really it does...even can hurt ppl in every different way....

who u think u r to piss me off???

do u know u r getting on my nerve??

is it fun to bully ppl n say ppl in this way???

wat the f**k u wan from me???

sorry for being rude...but then i think in my blog i can say anything i wan...

y must u always go on after me with all this kind of shits??

i think is my business right??

LOVE makes me regret...

i regret that being with u...

i regret of wat i did in my entire life...

i really need a chance to change...

but then u all just keep getting on my nerve...

make rumours around...

WTH....

u not tired i also tired wan ah...

can u just let me walk my own way??

u guys just wan to make my life meaningless is it??

is that wat u all wan???

I really tired le...really very tired le...

i just wanna start everything new...

cant i just do that???

i really need it..y u all just like to kacau me....

i think LOVE to me now is nothing...

LOVE SUCKS....

i really wan to start a new life...

can sumone help me???

GOD...i raelly need ur help now...pls...

i think thats all for today...

damn piss le...

ciaoz....

"frens will not be a FOREVER word"

What are frens for??

i kind the lost...bout frens...

is frens surpose to ber perfect or must have hate between them??

A fren to me is suppose to be true all the while...
which is not lies in between us...

if there is lies...there is no more between us...

how bout best fren???

best one to each person will only have one or two...

there wont be more than that...

but in good frens...u can have many...

which u can even enjoy everything together...

BEST FREN which u can share ur sadness happiness or even more...

A best fren should be saying the truth but not lies...

Last time i will think that i have lots of best fren..

but now best fren there is only one to me...

but...good frens is infinity... ^-^

should i list it out?? haha :P

nah i dun think so...i think they will know in the bottom of their heart...

but sumone i got to mention...haha

the person is.....QING SHENG..yuppu...this is him...

how does this guy looks??? haha...cute????i sure to call him sheng...haha
he is a very caring guy...staying so far away from me eh...
he is my nutritionist...lolx...which can be very garang sumtime...
when i sick..haha than im dead lo...no la...
he will care for me de...
he even have a sweet GF eh...everyone jealous de oh...
hmm...i kind the share everything with him...which means that he is a good listener...
he loves sport...especially BASKETBALL...gila bout that too...
i love him as my fren...
he start form 6 today...so i wish him good luck le lo...
and have a sweetest ever relationship with his gf.. ^-^

show u more of his photo...lolx...he is gonna kill me...

Best Dressing of SHENG...wakaka...

Best Hair Style of SHENG...but look kind the scary

Poser of SHENG...lolx....

Sheng..see liao pls dun angry ya...i love u as my fren oh...haha :p

"life is not as perfect as we see"

What is life?? as it as perfect as we see???

I started to be not like myself...

What will make life perfect??

Seriously i dunno....

i think everyone life got perfect and imperfect sumtimes...

from physical we really cant judge it...

today went for visit my fren calvin....

when i see him i really can drop tears...

my heart just felt break in sudden...he is not as good as i think...

whole body swollen...cant even walk...

he can recognise me...but he cant really talk...

he was wanted to hold my hand...but he got no strength at all...

his hand was cold...and his right eye cant open..

i know he wanted to talk...but...

my cousin was there too...he cried...

it really hurt us when v see him...

his head...the operate side was so scary...

he is a very good looking guy...

y this happen to him??

and the other passengers in car got no hurt??

Y?? i really dun get it....

but im glad..he is still here...

im so scare that his life will just end here...

i hate the general hospital...

he havent recover...he still shout in pain...

how can the doctor just send him back??

and the reason is there is no bed for him...

wat the hell...its so unfair...

frankly...life is not under our control...

it can just gone anytime...

i really hope...ppl will learn how to appreciate...

i dun wan to lost another fren no more...

my tears is limited for everyone...

i think thats all for today...

kind the no mood...

ciaoz...

no more mother's day to me

wat can i say bout mother's day?? firstly sure wish my mum happy mothers day....

my mothers day outfit...

me on my way to high-tea

today is surpose to be a happy mother's day celebration...end up everyone not happyits like unbelieveble...i cant believe it happen on mother's day...its hurts meeveryone will curious wat had happen...actually can say its not related to my family...but then...its related to me...its my fren...we play together since young...but now i also dunno got the chance to see him mah...i miss him...

actually its my fren calvin...he had an accident around sg long...when i n my cousin heard i was shock...my cousin even cry n leave to hospital without any food....how can this happen?? that time i started to dun have appetite to eat...im worried...so does my aunt...she cried too...

after the high-tea v head to general hospital to check him out...he was out from surgery...its a major surgery...brain...i was shock...he got not any physical injuries...its internal...it makes me more scare...y like that??? i cant take it...

its happen like this...he was driving very fast with another fren beside him...law...than the car fly over other side of the road...both of them were stuck in the car...my dad's fren were the car pulling guy...he say if he didnt get him out soon he might no life...thank god...he is out...

i still cant let go of this incident...i cant even get the chance to see him...cos he is in ICU only can go in 2 by 2...there is too much ppl than i just leave with family...my cousin was there...they say his body is trembling...im scare...i already had before a feeling of lost a fren... i cant take it if happen again...i dun wanna lose him...pls GOD....pls...help him recover...

cal...pls be strong...i wan to c u recover...i dun wan to cry le...u msut be ok soon oh...u still owe me lots of tea eh...dun so bad just leave like that...better fast fast recover...

i think i stop here...i cant afford to write more...

F!rst Day OF P0sinG

Dear every readers,

hello...today is my first time posing a blog...its kind the the weird actually...cos i dun usually

express myself or any single prob that im facing...but then my fren *Chian* shotted me...

but then he is right de...how can keep everything to myself without express it out?? lolx...

like wat *Chian* say...u just post ah not use ur mouth to say...so now i listen to u loh *Chian*

thanks ya.....

let me intro myself first lo...name u guys who know me will know la...JAsmine...17 this year...

i m a crazy gal...can be playful can be serious...but then no one wish me to be serious

*too scary* i guess...so this is my first blog...hope u guys give me comment..so that i can

improve.....

Today got anything special?? lolx...test loh...stress lah of cos...cant believe that i dunno how

to do the **** chemistry...study so much also no use...didnt even recall any single thing...

wat the ****....but i wont give up...i will learn a way to get an idea bout how to study...lolx..

ME in make-up look...

today actually my fren *chian* but then is not actually today...few days ago...he just break

with his gf...and the story i had read...its sound sad...this makes me feel like protecting him...

but too bad i cant...because im not *strong* enough...lolx...he is a good guy...but then its just

a problem can break things up

today i learn that couple is not as easy as we see...it is HAPPY...but lots thing occurs once

r/s is long...at the begining everything like so perfect...like a princess in a fairy tail...longer

or later...everything started to change...but then i believe if every couple understand each

other n give way the relationship will be perfect n full of love....i really does believe...*SILLY*

i think thats all for today post bah...one last thing is for my fren *Chian*

*Chian*

bie bu kai xin...wo zhi dao ni hen xiang nian ta...dan shi wo shi wang ni hui xue xi fang xia...

shi jie hai you hen duo dong xi ah...ni hai you wo zhe ge peng you....wo yi ding hui zhi chi ni

de...bie zai nong wo dan xin ni le...bu xiang kan dao ni bu kai xin...wo hui zhi chi ni de...ru guo

ni jue ding yao den..jiu den bah...bie hou hui...wo xi wang ni kuai dian hao qi lai....

*JAS*

thats me in every photo...hope u guys like it....